I don't know how to say it, other than there's so much happening in a week. Gosh I need to breathe and internalise and in elf's words do yoga after thinking of such things.

Anyway managed to sell off my old Samick. Such sentimental value.


Lately I've been having difficulty sleeping and, most disturbing of all, eating. I cannot look at food because it just disgust me. And THAT disgust me. Whatever happened to my love for food dammit! But after having some talky-talk session with Kwek Pei En I got hungry and ate. HAHA.


Not much of teaching thank God, but weekend was spent teaching Uncle Suhairi Economics because his paper is tomorrow. God bless, but I should think he's ok.


I failed my driving test (again). But I never felt happier after I failed I know sounds weird. Adel also failed. Hahah just the night before we were talking about ways to seduce the tester, like not wearing a bra and turning the aircon very low to get things perky. Or the best was no panties and wear a skirt, with a t shirt sliced in the middle to show cleavage (or rather Adel's non-existing ones!).
Guess we deserved to fail huh.


Naz slept over on Friday and in her blog she said I had something for her?? If I were to have something for anyone, they'd usually turn out to be Chinese.
She groped me like crazy. Look who has something for who! Did beach cleaning the next morning and I met the most CUTEST 15 month child called Mathias Singh Redawa. He is SO cute I could eat him alive. Raqeeb, my mum and I went cycling after that. Mum and cycling don't usually get along well but my mum seemed to be best of friends with it. We cycled to Fifa's to say hi and horror my mum went "Fifa looks SO pretty, I can't believe the things you said about her!"
Mothers are so judgmental sometimes. And cycled around Changi. Good place to cycle you know. I should want to cycle around that area as soon as I coughed up money for a new bicycle.

Huda kept asking me what I want for my birthday and I said a blanket. WHY don't people believe me when I say I want a blanket. Or a towel. Or a Dream Theater DVD "Chaos In Motion". But I definitely need a blanket.



You're killing me. I think I'm going to waste 3 whole years again. I never expect to feel like this anytime soon.
I'm not sure if it's reciprocated. I don't even care if it is.
This much I know, the damage is done.

I'm sinning so much it's scary.



I'll take care of you.
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there...


Keep breathing on.
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there...

Don't lift a finger let me hold you.
Hold you here until the pain is all gone...

ofblack&white
10:53 PM

Today was an errand-of-sorts day.

Taking a break from OLS (termed by Naz as Old Lame Shit), you-tubing around. Oh I went expo. To think there was a cat show but there wasn't. There's Croc's Sale and MPH book sale. And an Extravaganza Sale. Which I happily exploit to make up for the absence of cat show. Only to rush home to find out that my parents, yet again, eloped to Malaysia. If I'd known, I would've played soccer with Osha and gang man.


Anyway you know what's the hottest thing to watch?
Cellists in action.
Ok no, female cellists in action. So smexy please.

ofblack&white
9:58 PM

It's those few weeks with a horrid Monday. I was on my way to teach in the crappy cold morning.
Maybe it's God's way to tell me to not jay walk.
So I was at the divider about to cross and the most annoying driver had to spray beautiful rain water at me. I was busy waving my finger and cursing at the car when another driver splashed, yet again, beautiful rain water. Horribly wet and to top it off Amira text me saying she reached Macs all dry. HA.

I hate the cold ): Especially when I'm not at home. Met Fanabanana for dinner for Monday. That made the day better for me.

We had a substitute coach for three weeks and he's just very different from Rosli so needed some getting use to. Had breakfast with him and he sent me off to school. Adel asked to meet for lunch and lo behold ISH appeared out of nowhere (with Shisei the sidekick). Such a surprise Ish was supposed to be in Aussie can. Apparently she reached home at 1 in the morning that day.

Wednesday was teaching at 1030 at freaking Sengkang. Haha it was a torture to wake up. Andrea and Kat came by, supposedly to talk over lunch and study but ended up lepak-ing at Starbucks until 5pm. Went for Avenue Q in the evening qith Michlai and Ham. It was so awesome can!! I love musicals.

So Thursday was another torturous round. I was being so itchy (gatal) to have driving at 8 am. After a tiring day-before. Went breakfast at Coffee Bean with my aunt and we were discussing about opening our own family business with my grandma's land in Malaysia. Came up with good ideas. Then school. I missed Economets tutorial but not much of a loss. Caught up with whatev Kumar's doing with the help of a very nice classmate ((: My brains felt exploited by 8pm. Just wanted to cry and go home, mentally tiring buuuuttt I survived until 10pm. Ha to school. Love long weekends.

Friday was teaching in the morning, studying at Starbucks, took the wrong direction (heading for AMK but ended up at Pasir Ris I can't believe myself). Continued studying at Term3 Macs with Syahril til 8. I feel great figuring out Economets by myself. I felt terrible because a fever popped up like a zit. With that kind of massive headache, as if you have a tribe dancing in your head.

Today was, after months and months of busy Saturdays, a free Saturday. I felt wrong sleeping into 10 am because that's when I usually start and end obscenely late but heyho I'm at home and free. The joy. Zhong wants to drop by today, I don't know why she's so adamant about it, rather suspicious hoho.

I hope she wants to buy my guitar. Mum's been harping about my room and mess. Apparently, guitar = mess for her. My room, her fuss. I don't know why ):

Off studying now. Cat Show's on tomorrow at the Expo. Catch it please!

ofblack&white
12:38 PM

Guess what's the best present I've gotten?



That's an Ibanez. I actually have an Ibanez in my room. I cannot believe it still.

Birthday's good, the usual I guess. This year's caller-of-the-year would be Ilyana. It was quite a crazy conversation with her in the middle of the night talking about, gosh things mums would not approve of. Had dinner with him somewhere poshy, kissy, the night before. And out with the usual three for The Coffin and dinner.

It was the Math paper1 on Tuesday, and lo behold Damsel Ong Su Lin had to pull that crying thing on me which totally spoilt a day and a half. Because I felt it is my shortcomings if they have difficulty somewhere; that I should have taught them this way, and not the other, and so many what ifs. But as written on my table, There's Nothing "What Ifs" Can Do. So I guess all I can do for now is reflect on my mistakes and update/upgrade myself for future students, which I have reduced to 5 for next year. Trying for good number 4. Thankfully Math 2 was so much better.

Monday was annoyingly nice because I give nice nice cookies to Kat and she all but offered it to. Anyway of late Vincent seemed so prone to mispronunciation. Like goggle for google. The winner goes to 'strip writing'. Dela gave me a calendar. I know this sounds weird but I actually like calendars, and this year I reused last years because I cannot find one that's nice enough. Thankfully what I've gotten for next year is so pretty ((:

Lisa Hannigan's out with her debut album, Sea Sew, and reviews of it are promising. I must make haste to the music store to get it pronto.

Thursday was tiring. Started teaching at ten thirty and ended at 3. Rushed for 4pm lesson. All the way until ten. I saw STEPHEN TAY on the bus I nearly scream out his name. Reached home at 11, only to have Rachel calling me about Math at such hour. Stayed on the phone with her until past midnight talking on and on about something other than Math (I broke a rule with that). It would've gone on and on if not for the realisation that there's a paper she must sit for the next day at 8am. Total freak-out on my part please.

I watched US Election Night on Wednesday from start to finish and I was (this is, I have to admit very weird) so happy and deeply moved by his acceptance speech.
Haha the world would be a better place to be in I hope.

I find Rudy so weird that I shall not meet him anymore!


Next week seemed to be more promising; would finish teaching the A Level's students by Monday. I know I will miss them, but right now free time is something I really look forward to after a crazy and utterly drama (thanks to favouritestudent) year. I'm finally meeting Fana ((: And robbing Hazel's house with Toh. Probably meet Teo haven't seen him for ages! Plus there's a new recruit for soccer on Tuesday. And not to mention water soccer (I pray to God it's still on). And the need to start studying (MOCKS ARE COMING. KAT YOU BETTER START PLEASE) feels quite exciting in a twisted way.


There's one girl I like she's a smile on a Monday
And she'll fight to stay so.
And she's like the sun on a weekend
And though she is like the sea she's right to be so
Still I like that she sails with me.

ofblack&white
5:55 PM

Thursdays have been eventful of late, I'm totally loving it :D

After some thought (or not much at all, it was a WONDERFUL excuse to have a walk and train ride) I went over to Pei En's after class (which ends at ten pm?) but of course she opened her doors warmly and with much anticipation (HAHAHAHA) to her most beloved tutor and friend.

During my long long break Ilyana called and said HEY I'M NEAR YOUR SCHOOL (don't know why people like to do that lately). Ah but since her mum didn't sit to eat the beancurd it was only for a moment, and I headed back to the library to sit at my usualy spot, only to find THE TEACHER'S PET SITTING AT THE NEXT CUBICLE TO MINE.

That's the first break. The next break since usually-hungry Tracey was not hungry, I went for early dinner alone and well, let's just say the story was about a man, a runny nose, and a tissue packet, period. Very unexpected but not unpleasant.


And awareness, it's not neccessarily a good thing all along sometimes. Anyway one of the rare times I talked on the phone to Kat.
"Yes Ili I know, those kind of stickman with a dress that you can conveniently look up"
Just love that line lol.

Yesterday I was unfortunate enough to leave my keys at my grandparents, but my grandpa who ALWAYS comes to the rescue did it again, cycling over to pass me my keys (and the biliTouch, I don't know how I could forget that). And I don't know HOW I managed to agree with Syahril to meet up for breakfast with Hamzah as well at the most ridiculous hour (7.30 am, for which I was half hour late). Good fun. Still teaching. Tiresome day teaching all over.
Today was also the case, though I was roused from sleep earlier than usual by a most tiresome person, even after I dumped her kid because she's a health hazard to teach, she can still haunt me.
The nerve.


Just wondering (: (: (:


Tissue!

ofblack&white
8:41 PM